计控啊。。。

刚交卷的时候感觉还OK

走在路上越想越不对

于是

彻底完蛋了

之前还想得好好的

好好学习拿奖学金争荣誉可以获分去上海。。。

现在第一步就走歪了。。。

 

难道我不是学习的料？

不可能啊。。。

我智商应该不低的说

难道因为没花在学习上？

 

于是彻底沮丧了

能考好的没考好

明天那门完全没把握的。。。

加油加油

绝对不放弃

 

叹气

无语凝噎

然后继续努力

 

 

完了

好生奇怪的考试

好生堕落的状态

好生郁闷的结果

毁了

 

更让人崩溃的是

电力系统运行与控制

我竟然没有考试资格

天大的玩笑啊

上了一学期的课啊

因为系统烂就能取消我的考试资格吗？

我难道应该去买彩票？

 

毁了

完蛋了

我完蛋了

我整个人就快要不是我自己的了

完全没有想到会这样烂。。。

比设想中更烂

虽然本来已经打好主意准备不够充分没完全弄明白

但是没有想到会如此。。。

即使是自己理解的部分也没有表达清楚

在讲台上的时候就想逃走

什么都那么忙乱

我知道自己不能算学术型的科研人才

但是最基本的我从来没有怀疑过

可是今天

完全被自己打败了

我想逃

我已经超离觉得丢脸的状态了

完全是觉得自己烂到连自己也无法忍受

我想逃避

我想隐居

我想躲起来。。。

我的情感是懦弱的

但是理智要我坚持

也许这一次的失败深深刺激能发挥出潜力

好吧

所有的伟大的科学家也都是经历过无数次失败

但是他们之所以伟大就是因为从没有放弃

我虽然只是渺小的一粒尘埃

但是我也要努力发光发热

所以我不能把自己放弃了

即使孤独的一个人走

也要努力往前进

逆境出人才

我不够优秀

但是我有成为优秀的进步空间

这一次打击不会永久持续

只要我能重新摆正自己的状态努力不懈的前进

加油

不放弃

最最最最最可怕的底线也是至少还活着一切都会好起来的

 

 

自己也没搞明白

怎么能给人讲解？

紧张

今天晚上

丢人啊

加油gogogo

不就是个presentation吗

大不了讲完就逃走吧

没人会听你的

别臭美啦

想太多呢

 

可是好痛。。。

昨天竟然没人住诱惑吃了个迷你新地。。。

于是一切都晚了///

汗如雨下

绞痛难忍

一路上那么多人回头来问我要不要紧需不需要

浙大的男生还是很绅士的哈~

只可惜。。。

这是女生的问题

你们帮不了

即使帮了反倒让人更尴尬。。。

还是谢谢你们啦

可还是疼

后悔。。。

贪图一时的纵容自己

结果后患无穷///

而且在外边晃悠了一整个早上也见不到老大。。。

太遗憾了以至于难过

 

好好静下心来看书ing。。。

There is no doubt that both <Death poets society> and <Dangerous heart> are great movie as they make one feel shocked in the deep bottom of his heart, tears down his cheek and fall in thought.

When it comes to the definition of the teacher, I’d like to say that the teacher is an instructor who guides how to learn to live a worthwhile life. He is not a manager to manipulate students’ life, but an important man to prepare students for facing their coming life by going alone with them and helping them set their goals and get to their own way.

The lines that teacher uses to describe the so-called “academic student” make impression on me: “Those guys are all excellent. They are intelligent. They just have something that we call social problems.” — these words inspire Miss Louanne’ s efforts devoted to her students. It is she, together with other teachers, who feels what the academic students feel, and try her best to touch into their deep warmth-longing-for hearts under their cool and nothing-care faces. She knows why students are trying to hide themselves under the mask they are reluctant to cover with but have to, and determines to help save them from their massive lives.

That is the virtue Mr. Keating possesses in common. He sacrifices all his life to his students. He is never limited himself to traditional teaching methods, and he is always try to knock at the student’s true heart. He wants students learn how to live for themselves not for others even merely for high scores, so he takes them to the nature, to the poem, and to feel themselves, to perfect their personality.

They are great teachers, who deserve the name of the teacher and are worth of the respect and love from students.

When Emillio’s eyes are full of thanks-giving tears as Miss Louanne understands him and wants to help him from the bottom of her heart, I am weeping. Maybe he is hopeful, as there is yet someone tries to get into his life to care him, reassure him, and go forward side by side. Maybe he is frustrated considering the outcome when he steps into the Principal’s office, as he will still be rejected and have to go straightly forward to the end of his life. — that is the difference between great teachers and average ones. The former are trying hard to understand their students, while the latter are trying hard to keep a settled life, merely playing the rule.

When he is looking out of the window without any spirit in his eyes, I am weeping. He is keen on the drama so much that he spends lots of his spare time practicing. That is his dream, and it is Mr. Keating who gives him the courage to calm down to face himself straightly, go out of the shadow of his father, and try after his own dream. He devotes himself to it, he gets the role he is eager to play, and he succeeds finally to his soul, though he commits suicide finally, which is the only mistake stemming from the understanding-gap. Still, there is a wonderful road with brilliant light that comes from their minds, which cuts through the dark night any way.

When these students who once betrayed their respectable teacher are standing upon their desks, staring at the teacher, Mr. Keating, even once the shiest boy who is now the first one to have got the courage to stand up from a new angle, I am weeping. I can feel that Mr. Keating should have no regret after his leave, because he have seen his students make great efforts to pursue their goals with their passion and from a new perspective to see anything to set themselves apart from others.  And this moment should be remembered forever, because they now starting to find their ego, to live up to themselves as well as their parents and teacher. That makes the life meaningful.

Teachers steps into their students’ life and heart, and they can never instruct them until they touch their soul. That is the true definition of the teacher and the power that the teacher holds onto.

In my opinion, though both of them take on the scene at the presence of gray they assume light spots through giving us a clue about the definition of teacher. So I don’t think there are many differences between the two movies, yet the music in <dangerous mind> are more functional, as it promotes the plots as the lyrics said: I’m so blind to see……, the gansta’s paradise ……” this gives a hint, predicting the dark tomorrow of these independent students who are at a loss, while the poets for spirit freedom in <dead poets society> reveal the grief from dead-spirit as a blade scratches our skin occasionally.

Back to the scenery, given the same topic as the definition of the teacher, the perfect relationship between students and teachers lies in the understanding in each other and setting heart into other’s true heart.

--“I want to teach!”

--“……”

That is the pure definition of teacher, which fulfills the teacher with sincerity and greatness beyond words.

--“You are one of my favorite students.” 

--“You have done the never-thing so nice to me.”

Yes, that is the perfect moment between teachers and students.

--“You have your own choice. You should always have a new angle to the world, and you will find it is entirely different.”

--“ This time, we choose to live, my teacher.”

That is the happy ending everyone hopes .

确定说是要保研的人必须在国家n级上发表（录用即可）论文。。。汗死~信息不对称嘛~~~

开始后悔当初觉得人家是哄我多交稿费就拖欠拒绝了的。。。现在后悔不已~

然后m老师这边又说要我做什么什么的，还有那么强的tyk。。。然后自己的补课计划进度缓慢~一切都这么不遂人意？？？！！！

真是太突然了~~~怪不得xy最近那么开心，因为人家早早的都搞定了呀~~~

可怜自己那么懒惰，什么都不愿意争取努力一下。。。后悔来不及，咔咔~~~

怎么说呢，最近真是混乱，怎么会这样？

今天凌晨很感动，因为橘子dd竟然专程短信问候我是不是还在憋着熬夜睡不好觉。。。当时大家都刚躺下，我还在下边坐着，开着电脑乱溜达，浪费时间，因为一点都不困阿。。。很想哭得感觉，只是才认识不久的dd，让人有一种很信赖的感觉，仿佛他的心因为曾经受过伤，变得格外成熟、坚毅、忍让、耐打击一般--虽然完全是自己胡思乱想的。不过发现自己真得很喜欢依赖人。这样不好，很不好，非常不好。

可是必须接受这样的自己，不是么？

希望上天给我更为坚毅的性格和更为聪颖的头脑，让我尽快解决混沌的状况吧~

                                                                                                                                                                                May 1, 2004

Dear Vain,

Fancy hearing from you in the late April! Your description of your worries about the “poorer English study” strikes a chord with me. And I have something to share with you, which may give you some helpful information to you.

Looking back on my 9 years English study since the 5^th grade in primary school, the most important truth I find is English is not an easy subject to master. Its letters and pronunciation are totally different from our Chinese characters, and we need to spend more time and make more efforts than those in other western countries in order to learn it well. There is a large amount of vocabulary as well as idiom and idiomatic usages are really troublesome. Some times the meaning of every individual word, but when they are put together, you may fail to arrive at their real meanings. Facing that with appropriate and positive attitude is the first step to master English.

The good way to study English is not only hard work on grammar or reciting words, but practice. It is reasonable that practice makes perfect. Whatever you do, you are certain to aim at perfection. But perfection lies in practice. The more you practice, the more likely you are to have things perfectly done. English study is a case in point. In the past, I didn’t pay enough attention to that, taking it for granted that following teachers’ instruction and drills together with some reading is adequate, however, I have to change my view completely as I’ve attended into university. Since English is not some pure theory but a method to communicate, the practice counts above all. Compared with our Chinese study, what we most lack is the language environment. But we can create it for ourselves. By reading more, you can come to taste out “a sense of English language”; by speaking more, even merely speaking to yourself, you may improve your listening ability; by speaking more, your oral English will become more fluent and your expressing more freely; by writing more, you are certain to develop forceful writing skill.

Up to now, you have been a little disappointed because you don’t consider yourself a successful language learner. . Actually, I have done no better than you if you should feel my overstrain when I want to express myself. However, I believe we each are determined to be good learners. Then let’s work hard on practice, striding forward with listening in English, reading in English, speaking in English, writing in English, and dreaming in English.

“Imagination, never lose my passion. It’s on the way on the way, whatever it takes. Nor for a destination, it’s on my way on my way, all the colorful day……” The lyrics are the mirror of my heart. We are on the long way to learn English well. With perseverance, sensitivity and determination, we will find the colorful days of second language study and grasp the English language.

Best wishes!

 

                                                   Love from yours

                                                   Gain 

其实没有人嘲笑我啦，只是自己做得实在不像话。。。

虽然高考作为不及格，但是自认为自己还是有点文字感的，毕竟还靠征文比赛拿回不少奖品的啊，可是写份报告居然还这么。。。导师简直要崩溃了吧。。。人家才学的中文。。。我在中国有只觉得待了20多年。。。汗。。。

今天又有人来版上刷屏，真不知道他怎么想的，好玩吗？或者有其他的想法？

幸好有阿CAN，幸好有拉希，幸好有狗狗。。。直接TP删除。

可我还是那么冲动，没搞清状况就直接去斑竹会议厅里提问了。。。太挫了。。。

看见了同学手中的袋子，忽然想起那个申请。。。上帝啊，难道要和他们竞争。。。希望可以出线。。。我真得真得很想去啊！

总是幻想总是流泪总是担心总是兴奋总是紧张。。。可是命运掌握在别人手中。。。

爱ELLA爱尊爱生活~

看到好多关于他们的八卦，可是心里却窃喜。。。真的希望是真的。。。我希望他们两个人能幸福。。。为什么，只是因为他们都是我喜欢的艺人么？

在学校的BBS的GG版上为尊少开楼，认识的朋友中两个男生和一个女生都说我和尊少有点像。女生平时以观看人都比较准，思维也很快而且从没有诡异的想法，而那两个男生朋友，呃，摇滚乐那个领域的男生这么评价。。。
说实话，真得不知道是喜是悲。。。毕竟我是个女生。。。不过还是蛮开心的啦，毕竟是和自己超喜欢的人长得像啊，哈哈~~~（花痴状）
今天又有一个朋友看到我电脑上吴尊的桌面，就说我和他有点像。不过让我听闻了一个惊人的理!
因为苗苗是学画画的，她告诉我，一般人都有一定的自恋倾向，之所以会喜欢某个偶像，就是因为那个偶像人物在某种方面和他自己有点像。所以才会喜欢。譬如达芬奇的蒙娜丽莎为什么会有点像他本人的自画像，就是这个原理。其他的大师的一些人物画像也多少有些这样的类似情况。当然，如果是从没看见过一个人，只是因为那个人的某种经历、或者言词举止之类的而产生了崇拜或者喜欢的情愫则属于此类的“拓展延伸”。
然后我承认我是“外貌协会”的，所以觉得她的分析很有一定道理。而我喜欢的ella则是我的性格特点甚至做过的一些事情说过的一些话和她有完全的相同。
汗啊~~~~~~